Saturday, July 26, 2008

self portrait challenge: skill

Skill. Hmmm. Skill. Let's see. Skill. I'm drawing a total blank. Actually I've been drawing a blank all month long. The Self Portrait Challenge this month is 'Skill.' I personally think 'Nude' was easier. There's just something about being a stay-at-home mom that makes me feel very unskilled. As a news producer I felt like I was good at something. I was by no means a great producer, but I thought I could produce television news better than the average Joe on the street. Now I basically just have a few random hobbies (i.e. yoga, photography, writing), but I'm not skilled at any of them. Other than that...I'm a mom. And there is always room for growth when it comes to mothering.

So...I failed this month's challenge. Whatever.
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I've decided it's time to get back in shape. This summer I've been pretty slack. To give myself something to work toward, I'm considering running a 5K at the end of August. I guess you could say I'm 'training' for it now. But I use the word 'training' VERY loosely. My goal is to cross the finish line....without the aid of emergency workers....and before they open the road back up to traffic. So...on the days I don't have yoga, I run on the treadmill. I spend the entire time just trying not to pee on myself. It makes me really wish that I had been doing those damn kegel exercises in the nearly TWO YEARS since my baby was born. All of the sudden I am reminded that having babies really fucks up messes up changes your body. (To be totally fair...Canon left me in pretty good shape. I blame Elly for most everything.)
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In case you are wondering...yes I do have PMS.

9 comments:

Danika said...

A mom with no skills, that pretty much sums up exactly how I feel. Good luck on the marathon, and for the record, I thought you looked GREAT when I was out visiting. Don't be so hard on yourself:)

Love,
Danika

Lauren Gyorfi said...

Thanks for the forewarning on the Kegal exercises.

Jenny said...

Girl, you got mad skillz! Actually I only wanted to type "skillz" with a "z." Because I'm so street.
Love,
Your fellow kegel slacker.

Shell said...

All I can say is I hope you don't sneeze, while you are on the treadmill, or there may be a prob. OOPs!, laughed to hard, just peed! Have a good week!

lindsey smith said...

man. you and your friends are old talking about kegel excercises after child birth...totally awesome :)

ABOUT XIN LEI said...

ha, i was totally telling myself the other day that I should be doing more kegals...glad to know i'm not the only one that has difficulty not peeing on myself :). Good luck with the 5K training...you will rock it :).

Courtney said...

Man, good thing I had a C-section, huh.

Anyway, Christy, it doesn't matter if you think you have "skillz" or not (which you do, btw). Just be grateful every second of every day you get to stay home with your kids. I have to work a full-time job, which keeps me away from my sweet one 4+ days a week. I'd give anything to be an unskilled SAHM. Count your blessings :)

Dawn said...

My dear friend. You have too many skills to list, but one of my favorites is your ability to be an awesome friend. By the way, I feel the same way that you do. Being a stay at home mom has a way of sucking out every last bit of intellectual thought left in your brain. While it's such a gift to be able to have this time with our kids, it doesn't mean we can't grieve for the loss of our professional life.

P.S. I agree with Danika, you look GREAT, so no worries about the after-kids body. I hope I look as good as you when I done having kids one day.

P.P.S. Good luck with the training.

sldrye said...

Every now and then I read your post just to keep up w/ how things are going for you. :) I have to say that you are skilled. You are a very gifted writer and photographer. I can tell that just by browsing through your blog. :)I am not a mom yet so I can't say that I understand how that might be yet, but I am sure that it is a different world. I just can tell you that you definitely have skills