There were two...maybe three incidents in question. Our conversation began something like this:
him: were you ovulating?
me: what!? I don't know. Aren't you good? (more explanation here)
him: I don't know.
Further proof that we are probably the least responsible people I know. But we spent the next 30 minutes or so pondering "what if". We would need a minivan, for sure. Two was ideal, but three could be cool. At least they would all be really close together. Probably another girl.
I discovered today that we won't be needing that minivan after all. Disappointed relief. Such a contradiction of emotions. It's like my mind says, "absolutely not!" and my heart says, "why not?" This innate desire to procreate doesn't fit in with the modern practicalities of raising a family. I wish I could rid myself of this feeling of loss.
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No way!!! Alex would walk around with an inflated ego the rest of his life it that happened.
By the way, I took care of a patient who had her tubes tied and her husband had a vasectomy and somehow they still ended up pregnant...with triplets! Crazy stuff.
So I wasn't going to comment because it's proof that I'm up. But you leave me no choice...
I feel your pain, friend. Wes and I had a pregnancy scare while he was home on R&R, and let me tell you, I was FREAKING out!!!
Did Alex go back after his vas to make sure he's shooting blanks? If not, he needs to do that ASAP!
Admittedly, I watch L.A. Ink and there was an episode where a totally tattooed tattoo artist (follow me?!) and his wife contemplate getting him fixed. The day of the appointment, when they have supposedly made up their minds, they find themselves questioning their decision. I think it's human nature to question a choice that works against human nature. If our bodies weren't supposed to procreate, menopause would happen at 30. Glad to hear a decision you made a while ago hasn't been reversed and also glad to hear you still have that maternal instinct reserved for "what if."
I know this emotion. I was afraid we were pregnant and uninsured! Excited but talk about scared...I was also that same disappointed relieved when it was not true.
Practice abstinence! We do!!!
Shell
Your "feeling of loss" is so normal...You clearly love being a mom! it is sad when we realize that one phase of our life is complete and normal to be saddened by its passing.
I still struggle many days with, should we have one more or should we not! I've gone over the pros and cons in my head quite a few times. Still in limbo but not a miserable limbo.
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