Sometimes the things in life that bring me the most joy feel like weights tying me down. So heavy. To move, I must drag each along. Today my weights seemed unmovable.
The plan for today was to spend the day on the lake with some friends, my brother-in-law and his girlfriend. Alex and I were the only married couple...and the only ones with children. I spent all of my time taking care of the girls or seeking shade with Elly. I finally packed up the girls and left.
Plans for the rest of the weekend changed. People who had planned to spend time with my family opted for the single atmosphere.
I feel isolated and lonely. The girls are tucked in their beds and I just want to walk out the front door and run. Run until I'm too tired to run anymore. And then just lie down and sleep. But the weights that make me want to run also keep me here.
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I understand. We'll be okay. I think the more we lift the weights, the stronger we get.
I guess the day at the lake didn't go as planned. I'm sorry that you feel so weighted down today. I love what Jenny wrote..."the more we lift the weights, the stronger we get." Her words are so powerful in this context. Embrace who you are. The fabulous mommy who is also a passionate, loving, complex soul that is deeply loved by her family & friends. I hope tomorrow will be a better day and that the weights you felt so heavy today will be light as air tomorrow. Love you.
Whoever opted for the singles scene obviously hasn't played mommy dog and baby dog with Canon before. Who would pass up pretending to be a mommy dog for singles time? - Lauren
I just got an email from one of my dear college friends who said that she and her husband were giong camping in Thailand and Cambodia for the next three weeks. All I could think was, wow, that is just not possible in my life right now and it made me feel a little sad. I also think that what Jenny said was powerful. We need some more mommy hangout time!
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