Canon being away enabled me to sit in front of the television all day. I was paralyzed by the need to know the latest information. By the end of the day I felt emotionally drained. I picked up my camera and searched for something beautiful, something happy. It took quite a while. I wandered around the yard and through the house. Finally...I captured a picture that made me smile; my drooling daughter completely stunned to find herself standing unaided in her crib.
Before I was aware of the shootings at Virginia Tech yesterday, I talked to a friend about how much worry is involved in parenting. Constant worry. And now a new level of worry has been introduced. My daughters could die on a cold classroom floor. They could be shot to death simply for attending a college class. My thoughts today centered around the parents who found out this is exactly how their children died.
I am deeply saddened for all the families who lost loved ones. But tomorrow I can't let this tragedy consume my every thought. I have to let go. Let's go, Hokies.
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It's amazing how perspective changes when you become a parent. I too worry about my child having to go through something horrible and catastophic, especially after living through this week in Blacksburg. Yet I know I cannot protect her from everything, everyone. We all have to let go, in more ways than one. Thanks for giving me a glimpse of your baby girl doing just that - letting go. Love you.
I can't believe Elly is pulling up... She's so advanced!
I'm not a parent and realize my perspectives might change ... and I empathize with your sadness, shocking & unexpected sadness. But, we cannot live our lives in fear. Bad things can happen every day ... from falling and breaking a limb ... to car accidents ... to rare but devastating shooting sprees. Living life under an umbrella of fear is stifling, limits our ability to achieve great things and lets "them" win. By freeing yourself from those worried constraints, you take the victory away from them and keep it for yourself and your loved ones.
Hi Christy! It's Courtney (used to be) Brezina from way back when. Merissa sent me a link to your blog. I'm one of the dorks too so, yes, I've got a blog. cbicenhour.blogspot.com. Email if you get a chance...cbicenhour@hotmail.com. BTW, your girls are beautiful...I've got a little man on the way :)
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